Sex and Beyond

Before I entered the world of high-class prostitution, I had virtually little sexual experience with others. However, I was deeply sensual and curious. Back then, in my late teens, I didn’t even know that a man could bring me to orgasm. For one thing, bringing myself to orgasm used to take a lot of effort. Little did I know that some men make it their goal to spend a great deal of time giving pleasure.

I often feel that being a prostitute has made me a very passionate lover. I really love sex (only with those I love and/or have chemistry with, of course). I am fortunate that my facade (the exotic and busty girl-next-door) attracts a lot of romantic clients, clients who get pleasure in pleasing me. It is some of these clients who’ve taught me about the wonders of my body, and what feels good.

When I was around 19, a gentleman, who happened to be a client, gave me my first non-self-induced orgasm (previously, I had my first orgasm by myself). I learnt that pleasure-giving-men know how to make a woman feel relaxed — and most importantly, they are patient. He spent such a long time kissing nearly every inch of my body, edging me and teasing me purposely. In fact, he purposely teased me by avoiding my most sensitive areas. By the time he reached my nipples, my valley was flooded with arousal. Once his tongue went between my inner thighs, I was intensely aroused. Coming with his warm lips and mouth was bliss. After him, it gradually became easier to come with talented men. My ex-fiancee in particular made it his duty to make sure I always have intense orgasms, in any fashion that I desired.

I have always been a very aroused lady. As I wrote before, the ironic thing about being a courtesan is that ‘work’ sex makes me crave ‘real’ sex. As mentioned, some clients (regular clients that I know well and trust) can make me orgasm. However, the reality is sex for ‘work’ doesn’t do much for me. A client who makes me orgasm does not make me lust for him necessarily. While I may get pleasure from a client, my feelings can remain indifferent since there is no love. However, a man that I genuinely desire, who makes me orgasm, entices me to be playful and heighten our pleasure. There are no sexual boundaries with someone I love.

A fellow escort once ridiculed me angrily, because she found it ‘disgusting’ that I could get pleasure from some clients. Ironically enough, when escorts socialize together it is actually ‘uncool’ for an escort to admit she enjoys sex with some clients. Most sex workers I encounter do not ‘get off’ with their clients, and can’t even conceive of the idea. Even more ironic, escorts judge each other as ‘whores’ depending if she enjoys her clients or not. Paid-sex is typically ‘mechanical’ between working girls and their clients — the sad reality is most girls are doing this for the sole purpose of money. Just because a woman sells her body does not mean she’s discovered the beauty of pleasure or has discovered her own sexuality (sadly) — I think a lot of people do not realize this about prostitutes. On the contrary, my personal experience only reflects a small minority of prostitutes, who try to make the best of work and enjoy clients when possible. If a man is respectful, impeccably hygienic, discerning and generous, then I may let him seduce me (within limits, of course).

‘The girlfriend experience’ is a term working girls use to describe an ‘extra’ service. Regular service with a client consists of sex with a condom, blow-job with a condom, no kissing, no touching or licking her pussy. The ‘girlfriend experience’ on the other hand includes kissing and allowing the man to perform oral sex on her — in other words, sex that’s similar to being with ones girlfriend. Additionally, no high-class working girl has sex without a condom, unless she is insane. Any form of unsafe sex among high-class prostitutes is looked down upon, and deeply condemned amongst the working girls ‘codes of ethics.’

So despite my rant on safe sex, I contradict myself because of my actions with the Sheik. Technically, the Sheik is a client because he pays for our time. However, he is also my lover and friend. The sex we have has no limits, because it’s emotional and based on love. It is the strangest and most confusing scenario I’ve encountered, the Sheik and I.

My hormones are raging this week. I am flushed with desire. I can’t wait to see the Sheik and unleash these desires.


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5 responses to “Sex and Beyond

  1. Hi there, I happen to be an eager commentator today.
    But there are so many old posts of you I haven’t read yet.
    And I can see some evolution in your writing, the themes you take on, your stance etc…It gives me an interesting insight in your persona too 😉
    And I also, find it very ironic that working-girls judge each other because of different experiences.
    It’s very, very sad actually that people are so individualistic and egoist that even the most vulnerable in society make harsh judgements on people who undergo different experiences.
    It only underlines what women are told over and over again.
    That we, for some reason, are not allowed to receive sexual pleasure from men who are not our boyfriend or husband.
    And you know, I’d feel very disgusted if I had to escort without enjoying it. It would ruin me.
    And I know your experiences have been very mixed over the years, and with different clients (that’s what I gathered, at least), and I’m very happy for you that you at least found/find some enjoyment in your work.

  2. Ivan

    It seems like a serious relationship but the way you describe it… sooner or later is going to end, so thats why i gave you that idea, there are some things that are better said in paper (or in a book like Fernando Savater said)… This is probably one of those occasions, in my honest opinion you should write him a letter.

    And btw im in a complicated situation too so i kinda understand where you coming from, and honestly i think you are in a better situation than me cause all of those situations that you describe only require his commitment to this love and yes maybe he is going to lose some money but still he has his brain, and if it was me, and i know i love you then im staying.

    And 1 more thing im having a hard time picturing you in Saudi Arabia, do you REALLY want to do that? Wearing a niqab? really? maybe in a country like i dont know UAE or Egypt or Qatar… and btw beware of a war between Saudi Arabia and the GCC and maybe NATO vs Iran and maybe Syria.

    Good luck with your decisions and Good luck with your relationship.

  3. escortdiary

    I was engaged to a man just before I met the Sheik. We are quite serious, but as I mentioned in other posts, his culture (Nadj Saudi) makes it impossible for us to get married. On top of that, even if he went against his parents wishes, Saudi law does not permit marriage to a foreigner until the age of 35. The odds are against us.

    Thank you for your comment.

  4. Ivan

    Definitely you are taking a huge risk having unsafe sex with this guy but maybe you need this type of “intimacy” with someone. How long (before the sheik) you are not in a relationship?
    You should talk to him, and see if its possible to get into a serious relationship with this guy yes this is risky and maybe you are going to lose a client but im afraid that if you keep going this path you are going to end up with a broken heart and unstable emotions.

    And 1 more thing that girlfriend who ridiculed, yeah not sure if she is your friend, nobody deserves to be ridiculed.

    take care and good luck.

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